our baby...

It’s pretty funny and amazing to watch a baby growing.. hehe.. about a size of 15 inches.. it’s feel like unstructured.. need to support every each of her parts while hugging her.. afraid will hurt her bones or body.. so, never ever try to touch a baby whenever u have no any experience.. ^^ although being a mom is tough, u will feel happy when u see ur baby is growing.. everytime u hold her in hand, u feel sweet.. and I had never felt tis way b4..

A secret to be told.. baby is de ideally one v can talk wif.. v can trust baby in 100%.. can talk everything u wanna speak out.. n it doesn’t matter if u cry in front of baby as well.. u noe y?? coz baby will never tell anybody about tat.. haha.. baby will keep silent all de times.. especially when baby give me a smile, everything in my heart got an answer.. life become meaningful n full of colors.. so cute..

Baby is a creation from de power of love.. I do not understand why some human being is so cruel.. why they can abuse a small child like tis?? Don’t they feel tat baby is a treasure gift from god?? Y can’t they appreciate it?? if they hate baby so much, then don't ever MAKE LOVE.. But for me is different story.. I love my baby.. baby is juz like “gold” for me.. hehe.. I’ll do everything for my baby.. yeah.. thx god..

everything's gonnA ovEr..

2nite.. a great news to me.. haha.. finally I get to noe n see something very clearly.. mayb u dunno u are hurting me.. but I can tell u tat everything u did was drowning me to hell.. n I’m juz gonna remain silent wif all tis.. by de way, who can tell me wat had I did?? Anything wrong in everything I do?? I guess not.. coz I’m really doin de best tat I had rite now..

Ppl said “when u get something good, u need to appreciate it, and if not u will lost it 4ever”. Tis was really applied on me.. I think I had de responsibility to advise everyone to appreciate whatever they have on hand.. It’s really doesn’t feel good to spend ur life wif regret-ness.. no matter how hard u tried to gain ur happiness bk, no one will noe how much u need it.. n no one gonna understand u.. till de end.. u are de one who really understand urself well.. u need not to tell or speak to anyone.. becoz tears will automatically falls from ur eyes.. heart will nvr pain after tears have falls..

I had learned to see de world in a more realistic way.. I had learned to accept everything in a better manners.. I had learned to control myself well.. if there is anything tat u cant make urself clear wif, juz gv a smile n everything will goes smooth.. when it is time to go, “love” will juz fade away.. no ppl gonna feel sad on it.. only me.. who’s keeping and remain every little pieces of memory tat v gained 2gether.. however, all de memories are slowly fading out from my mind.. n no new memory gonna add in.. who cares??

Blue sing for me 2nite..wat I got to do to make u love me? Wat I got to do to make u care me? Wat do I do when lighting strikes me? And I wake to find tat u’re not there? Wat I got to do to make u want me? Wat I got to do to be heard? Wat do I say when it’s all over? Alrite alrite.. I guess I got de answer for all tat.. no point to fight for something is impossible oledi.. face de truth.. gonna live better.. but one thing I really cant make myself clear wif.. not even be a fren?? m I really tat worst until I had no chance n disqualified to be one of ur fren?? nthg much I hope.. juz wanna get a fren much better than to be in de situation like tis..