Recently my mood keep on hanging.. I forget the way to balancing myself oledi.. Wish tat i could be alone.. could facing waving sea and scream loudly.. never hope anyone will hear it.. But.. No matter how bad my mood is.. I still need to hang my smiling on my face.. I cant let anyone to know about it.. especially my family.. i would never let them know my feeling.. I had to entertained them.. bringing all de jokes n fun to them.. n tis is my duty..
Tis post will be the part one of my story.. I owex share tis story wif all my frens.. most of my frens oso feel tat it's sweet when they heard it.. because most of them are Gals as well... Gals owex dreaming to hv a fantasy love story.. However, for me.. All tis memories can only be memories.. It's hardly for me to forget it because I guess tis is de worst mistake tat i had make in my life.. Hmm.. Mistake oledi happened.. Nthg could be recovery.. De most important is to learn from mistake.. Actually, I'm a veri dull person.. especially in talking.. I owex couldnt find the right way to express myself.. Yet, I decided to wrote out everything here n I will never share tis story to anyone again..
I still remember the scene of our first date.. He wore a long-sleeve sweater in white wif long jeans.. I get shock when i get down from my house.. I saw a guy standing outside a cab n wearing long-sleeve waiting someone in a sunny day.. at tat moment, I did laughing in my heart.. but, in my mind I feel tat it's sweet because tis can showed tat he's really serious in dating me out.. I never ever think tis scene will happen in real-lifetime.. N it's really happened on me.. I tot it only happen in film..
He's really a kind man.. he loves giving surprise to me n quite romantic.. He gave me a gift in our second date.. I should be veri happy at tat time.. Yet, I dunno y i owex trying hard to hide my feeling in front of him.. i owex act steady n cool in front of him.. when i received de gift.. i only said "thank you".. tat's all.. n how terrible am I?? I left it on de seat after our meal at Mdm Kuan.. He's de one realised it.. @@
At the beginning, I doesnt have much feel on tis guy.. never ever think tat v will be couple in one day.. tat's y people said that no prediction in love.. Me, myself dunno when i started to like him.. dunno when started to love him so much.. dunno when started to realise tat i really need him to be wif me..
He requested me to be his gf in a cinema.. my mind tat time was totally blank.. but, i agreed.. However, later on when he tried to date me again.. i felt nervous.. i'm trying to avoid.. I havent get prepared to be a person's gf.. wat's a gf must do?? how a gf should act?? totally hv no idea on it.. a 19 years old year enjoying her first love.. ~ to be continued ~
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